The Core 1 module of the CPA is 8 weeks so I am almost halfway through the beginning of the program. It would feel amazing to be able to report that I have breezed through this with no self doubt but that of course isn't the case. The first week I thought "what have I gotten myself into?!" Here I am, working from home with my kids on my own and now adding a demanding graduate level program into the mix? It scared me. Because the stakes feel high. After all these years of working towards this goal, after my boss paid for the module.....what if I can't do this?
Well those aren't productive thoughts. I know this. But they are honest thoughts. They are natural thoughts. They are something I am working to change.
So I am happy to say that almost four weeks in, I am finding my groove, feeling more capable by the day, and learning so much. This may not be the way that I envisioned completing this course, but this is a chance to put one foot in front of the other and prove to myself that I can achieve what I put my mind to. We all can. We might not get to the milestones when we hoped we would, success might end up looking different than we projected....there will be adversity, sometimes much more than is fair. But if we show up for ourselves, put in the work, and tell ourselves we can do it, we'll end up at the finish line, thinking back on when those tangible accomplishments were merely a dream.
-Amanda.
