My body is tired. The past few years I have been dealing with a myriad of health problems, chief among them, low iron levels. In my body this feels like extreme lethargy, anxiousness, aches and pains. It is a weird place to be because I know that if I eat better and move my body the majority of my health problems will resolve (I am lucky enough to still be in a place where I have control to fix these issues through diet and exercise) but I am so deeply drained that it isn't as simple as just going for a walk or making balanced meals. Sometimes...actually oftentimes...I don't have a lot to give beyond my work day. This blog has been helpful and so is spending time with my kids. But sometimes I feel guilty. Guilty I am not doing enough, guilty I am choosing things like snuggles with a book or gaming with my kids instead of a nature walk. I want so badly to be the energetic mom and wife my family deserves, and even more than that, the healthy vibrant woman I know I still have in me. But sometimes it feels insurmountable. Sometimes the idea that I could be living in a healthy body doesn't even seem realistic. I know that is low energy talking. But it does feel impossible at times. I am not aspiring to be a certain size or a certain aesthetic. I really just want to be at a place where I have the energy to live life to the fullest. This week I am committing to two things as a slow start. I want to spend this week focused on adding really high iron foods into every meal, being more conscientious about my iron supplements, and working up to a nice nature walk for next weekend. This probably sounds like a pretty small feat to a lot of people, but it really is a big struggle for me. Hoping these small goals will help me put one foot in front of the other (both literally and metaphorically) to start really seizing the day and finding my way back to health.
-Amanda
